16 posts categorized "Random"

July 17, 2008

Hair raising

Alongside a weight problem I've had a parallel problem, a follicular one and unfortunately because of those darn hormones it's all too common when you have a weight problem.  Fear of hair loss can creep into your dreams in the form of a night terror, it certainly does mine.  It is one thing a man losing his hair, and certainly not an aspect of manhood he'd embrace.  So imagine, if you will, the experience of this loss for a woman. 

Remember, even before we go into puberty we use our hair to enhance our femininity.  Hair is so aptly named is the crowning glory, it's the main outward sign of our femininity and losing it rips away a portion of one's feminine identity. 

When I was at my heaviest my hair, which remained styled long, was the one thing that I still liked about myself - losing it was desperately painful.  

My personal hair loss happened a  little under three years ago now.  There may be a couple of photos lurking somewhere as a reminder of that desperate period. In the meantime I'm wachful with my hair and hope one day my weight loss will induce my deviant hormones to balance.

Unfortunately a few weeks ago my hair was beginning to look rather thin again.  One aspect of the advice I was given (see previous post) was something I found really hard to maintain... Leave it alone!

I still don't entirely know what had caused the loss.  It hadn't been looking it's best for a while so it could have been hormones but then I was very ill.  The doctor suggested to me that i't used to be said that a febrile illness could trigger hair loss'.

Overall, apart from the hard cut back, and massage I think the advice not to wash ones hair too often was probably the best advice.  I have always had greasy hair, so I have always washed it on a daily basis,  That's not really the best thing you can do for your hair but I am completely phobic of greasy hair and working in a customer facing role it's not really the best look.  Back to the beginning of this year I was back to a washing it every morning,  yet it'd still be  greasy hair by the evening. My reaction waas then to manically wash it until it it'd got to a point that it'd started to look thin again.

The tricholosist was excellent in that she recognized that the hair loss was happening.  I was, at this point, brushing just a a few remaining long strands over my head, yet people were telling me that I was imagining it or that I shouldn't worry about it.  This was despite the fact I was by now almost completely bald.   I was starting to doubt if what I was seeing in the mirror really was my reality.

However when Wendy examined my hair she was able to tell me that the hair follicles were OK and there was actually new growth there.  The bit I didn't like was that it all had to go and she set about hacking it off there and then.  It looked a little better, not like I was trying to hide what was plainly missing.  It was kind of cute when it grew back curly, and I liked returning to the elfin look I'd been given as a child. 

The best advice from my experience is to see a  trichologist (rather than a hairdresser) for support and for a better insight into what I was dealing with.  This was far more helpful than the medical doctor.  In the meantime you can check for hair growth yourself by; near your parting hold with your hands flat against your scalp, hold your hair down on both sides so it's flat against your head.  You will, hopefully, see very short strands standing out.  This is your new growth.

With my recent thinning the action I've been taking, along with increasing the days between washes, is that I've stopped using regular shampoos.  Kind of in line with my Caveman diet.  I'm not putting parabens into my hair any more and I intend to start making my own shampoos shortly.  I'm not sure if it's the less frequent washing or reduction of chemicals but in just 6 - 8 weeks I can see a marked increase in new hair growth and the grease problem seems also to have balanced itself.  My my hair looks glossy, has a better texture rather than being greasy at the roots and brittle and dry and frizzy at the ends.  Actually it looks like my hair used to be - and there's a lot of it!!

Finally, cant resist a paleo note.  Yes, I do think looking to nutrition is an extremely important to good hair.  Look to increase densely nutritional foods and reduce that stress.  It will show up in your hair and will affect your weight.  My grandmother used to recite a story about her friend whose daughter, Heather, suddenly died at the age of 6.  Her friends hair did go white overnight as a result of the shock. 

I heart my hair...

June 18, 2008

Out of Limbo Land

Happy Birthday to me,

 (UPDATE: Yesterday, delay in entry)

Well the day started of starting well because of the title of the entry and of course the date and then turned suddenly turned nasty at work before hand of the clock even came round to 9 because I found myself the victim of a bullying incident.  I was going to call it 'covert' but I've just looked up bullying definitions and this comes into the realm of 'obvious bullying'.  Anyway this is the second incident this year and has really knocked my confidence, just as I was re-garining it, forcing me  to hide in in the bookshelves in order to shed some silent tears.

GREAT start to my Birthday.

On to happier things.  Panic stations!!  As I was heading towards a record breaking  7 month house sale  I've finally exchanged!  Yippee *skips around the room*.   Move date is Monday 23rd, although I had wanted 2 weeks between exchange and completion.  Anyway it's all pretty legally binding now.  All pretty scarey since we have the petrol strike going on this weekend (including Monday & Friday) in the UK.   It could all go horribly wrong!!  If I could score my levels of anxiety it's pretty much 10/10 at the moment.

The outcome of this is I'm either going to go one of two ways I'm either going to eat everything in sight or not at all.  I think it's going to be the latter and given that I've just finishing this at 6 am having been awake since 4 am.

Anyway, his will be my last post for a a few days.  Is there such a think as computer withdrawal?   I feel as if I'm already suffering symptoms, my first job today is to pack up the computer *sobs* until I don't know when *sobs*.

Finally, and the main reason for this is post is I need to become more social and more accountable, join in a challenge, set some goals, and to this end I've joined the Bloggers Biggest Loser Challenge.  Seems great fun and I'm looking forward to joining in.

 

June 07, 2008

The Seven Sisters

I was on my way home from work yesterday and suddenly felt claustrophobic at the thought so instead took a detour. 

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Proof that we walked down.  The grass down here is so bouncy I've always walked this bit barefoot.

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Taking a few moments out to enjoy a good book and the sea air and view... bliss

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I used to come down here on a weekly basis.  Can't remember why or when I stopped - the detour was so worth it.

 

May 21, 2008

Confessional & THE Penny Farthing

Dear Blog.

"I sinned".

yes~ Jenny ~ weak, weak weak

...but being caught in the act WILL be an effective deterrent. 

Oh the shame of it.

This is what happened:

I rounded the corner today at work; it was the end of the day and THERE sitting on the side was a plate of biscuits.  Now usually such things are confined to the staff room - where I don't go!  Without thinking I took one and it was so, so ... goodI went back for more - two more!  Now my colleagues know about my 'unsual' diet.  They've been supportive and have really assisted by not putting temptation in my path... and you know ~sometimes~ when you're on a diet, there'll be someone who sets themselves the personal task of sabotaging it.  Not this group though.  Their support has really helped my resolve, which until recently has been unbreakable and strong.  I know it's only me who will ultimately succeed or fail, but I don't want to let down those that've encouraged me.  With this in mind I've easily been able to walk on past any temptation inadvertently left in my path.

Today however, Colleague 'B'. said, with her back to me,

"Jenny, I've left some biscuits from the meeting on the side, although I know with your diet you probably won't' want any".

She then swung round to face me ... and there I was ... looking like a bloody hamster, gob full of yummy oaty biscuit and hand hovering near my mouth ready for the next bite, as guilty as sin and no way to escape.

It was one of those awful moments when time stands still.  Complete surprise and shock on her face.  Horror on mine.  

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Amused 'B' said

"but I see you've found them!!!" and then we both cracked up. 

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I think I've redeemed myself though.  Since the sun had decided to show itself on the way home I took a detour to the top of Ditchling Beacon and, biscuits in mind, went for a brisk walk along the top. I really don't know why I don't do this more often... in truth, I'm not usually the driver so the car doesn't usually want to stop. Anyway, it was beautiful and on the way home my face was glowing from the exhilaration of the brisk walk and wind, rather than my previous acute embarrassment.  

It's a snaky steep drive down, and can be a little hair raising.  Today I found myself thinking that, if I died now my last hour would have been a truly happy one. 

Finally as a completely random way to finish this entry on the way home a bizarre sight - a boy *speeding* through the village on a Penny Farthing! I kid you not.  Strange, I did wonder if it was some sort of physical challenge because it did look like really hard work. TY02FCA0PNQXMCAZ97F6VCA3N9N4RCAPOHO0HCAK1N4O7CAW71BM5CA7CU41FCAY3FTX0CAV0MYBZCA5ETJ1ZCAPTZL51CAI6Z5DNCAY9T91NCAV7JCA0CAPIX9WPCAO0PI4DCAACGAXDCAXW7E0GCAEHL0MJ  

 

 

May 05, 2008

Sad news

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A little maudlin today.  During the weekend I spied an obituary to a 'lad' who was in my school year.  To be perfecly honest I couldn't really remember who he was and had to check out the tags on our year photo to put the face to the name.  Nevertheless, I feel terribly sad and although I don't really know what happened the obituary asks for donations to be sent to the British Heart Foundation.  Who knows what heart condition he had,  I'm just putting 2 and 2 together and making 5.  I know it happens, but it highlights the danger of heart disease when it happens so close to home.  Not so long ago we were a healthy bunch and  I'm completely shocked that anyone from my own school year would already dropping down from heart disease, we're not that old (36).  Brings home the fragility of life. (R.I.P. Peter)

May 03, 2008

The Mouth Revolution.

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Take a stand.

Join the revolution

Yes, I know what am I doing watching silly videos when I could be exercising.

I couldn't resist posting this if you have 5 minutres see this video.  It is quite funny - promise!

April 29, 2008

Felicia's 'yougin' photo challenge

Sandpit A few days ago Felicia at 'Life Happens' put up 'youngin' photo challenge up to the age of 10.  I was a couple of weeks late coming into the world and have probably been late for everything else eversince.  So a few days late here are mine.

I put up some once before in November so a couple are repeats.

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Always Hungry!!!!

Can't find many photo's (I like) at 10.  I'm wearing brown

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April 26, 2008

How does a standard diet make you feel?

It's funny isn't it how it's recommended that a standard and balanced diet is one where everything can be eaten in moderation.. .

Think about the acronym used for the standard diet. 

For me its the Standard UK (SUKD) which doesn't really tell you a lot but I like the acronym used in American and Australia.

* * * * * * * *

- S - A - D -

yes

S A D

* * * * * * * *

Doesn't sound like the standard diet has much to do with health vitality.

I'm just going to file this under random since I'm in such a random mood today.

April 13, 2008

Felicia's fun photo challenge

Imgp0020 I'm pretty excited to have *finally* bought my first digital camera (a modest 8 mp) and Felicia's 'fun photo challenge' over at 'Life Happens' presented the perfect opportunity for some practice snaps. Hence, there are a few:)   

Being a digital camera newbie I had a teething problem the view and glare on the glass - I couldn't see a darn thing on the screen when aiming for a snap.  Any hints or tips gratefully received.

In fact I went a bit mad and made an album on the side bar.  All the pics you see are within 2 minutes walk from my home. The photos below are (i) looking into my street and (ii) the view to the sea looking away from my street.

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Nature is bountiful

I was bereft.

Yes I was.

No more cookies, no more cakes, no more dairy, no more chocolate....

Believe you me I resisted, I stamped my feet and I fought.

When I've followed other diets the goal at the other end has always been to be able to eat 'normally' again.  Yet, somehow manage my weight along with my favourite products.

Pray to stay thin, pray to be well.

No, no, no...

Well I wanted to cook.  I enjoy the cooking process but when I started the paleo diet - well - it would be just for a while, just while I lost weight.    Cooking the way food as I knew it  (standard UK diet) well that's not exactly paleo is it? 

Life was about to change, so yes I was bereft.  I felt limited by my future paleo foods, and I was scared to be bored. 

But I've gone through a gradual process of realisation - that I could *never* really go backwards.. and *shock* I enjoy my new way of life.

As it happens I've never been in the kitchen more.  Believe you me, I am enjoying my food so, so much more than before. You can't really overeat on this diet. This is a totally safe arena for me to play in. 

I've been dabbling in another way of eating and style of food preperation and eating that works well alongside my paleo diet.  Now, I'm not going to come out about that yet but it's a foodie wonderland and boy am I having fun playing.

The fun has only just begun...

~ nature is bountiful ~